It is just one of those days...

Today is my dad's birthday - Happy Birthday Dad! I had a really great conversation with him today. Well it started out not so good, both of us have had a hard time as of late, nothing espeically bad, just not great.

My tough time has been focused around the fact that I am realizing that my friends here are moving away, not right now, but they will both leave me soon - Maria on the 6th of June to go to Ireland for 6 months, and Marjie leaves to go back to Toronto around the end of July. That will leave me alone again here in London. I mean I have great flat mates, Emma and I get along great, but still. That leaves me to start over again. And I dont' know if I want to do that. It just really makes me think that I really need to access if I want to stay past that time. I need to look into the Visa stuff (no I haven't done that yet, and yes I will get on that this week). I don't even know what it would entail to stay. And i need to figure out if I want to stay this poor for the next year or so. I feel tired of doing it.

I guess i just need to do some serious thinking in the next few weeks. What do i want? I am tired of having to make these big decisions - but as my Dad so wisely said today, that is what happens when you grow up.

Near the end of the conversation, just as we were about to get off, he said the most touching thing. That even though he doesn't call (can't figure out the whole international calling thing) and hates computers so doesn't really email, he thinks about me everyday and really misses me and wishes that I could be closer to home. He said that is the problem with having a cave man for a dad, and I said that is the problem with having a traveler for a daughter.

I think i am a bit homesick today...